Through the Trials...God is Good.

I'm currently sitting on my couch as the cable guy installs my landline phone and cable box, and thought I should give an update on life.  This month has been a month of ups and downs, tears and fears, and growing with the Lord.  I told y'all about my latest "epiphany" to make changes in my life.  And well, changes have been made....on a timeline I didn't exactly plan on.  To cover my tooshie, I still can't state any exact specifics of what's going on.  But, in the midst of trials I never imagined and challenges I would never wish upon anyone, I'm learning to fully trust God with the REALLY BIG decisions and problems.  I know that He is faithful and His greatest desire is for me to not be miserable...but to be happy and joyful.  Because, as a Daddy...He wants to see His children happy...and I'm not.  He's teaching me patience as well.  Patience in knowing that He will work things out, but that His timeline isn't mine, and the next right choice will come along when He is ready for it too.  It helps that I have such Godly, wonderful parents to help guide me and support me through this situation...whatever the outcome may be.  I've also learned some lessons on what happiness and success is...in God's eyes.  But that's a lesson for another day.  For now, I've accepted the outcome to my current situation, and am trying to be proactive and improve the situation.  But patience, trust, and faith in God are HARD lessons to learn...but oh my oh my, how my God is teaching them to me!  And if the end result is that I'm on a deeper level with God at the end of this than I have been in years...I will not count that as loss, but as gain!

Deep Thoughts...from the Tub

Awkward title...I know.  But, honestly, I always seem to do my best thinking while in the bathtub.  Taking a "bath" is rare for me...I'm a shower girl.  But, every once in awhile I'll either get in the mood for a bath...or have such an awful day I need to relax in a bath.  Today was a mixture of the two.  A "I feel like taking a bath today...because I need to prepare for the stressful week I know is ahead of me" kind of day.  My job is STRESS.FULL. (with 2 L's!)  I don't want to get into any specifics...but, basically...it's a REALLY tough job, and an even tougher FIRST job.  I mean, what I do primarily is NOT what I was told I'd be doing when I took the job in the first place...so, it's disappointing on top of it all.  Anyways, all that to say, I had a "revelation" in the tub today.  I sat down, breathed in my Bath & Body Works Eucalyptus Spearmint aromatherapy bath salts (aaaahhhh....), and thought: "If you want to change the situation, YOU have to initiate the change!"  So, I did.  I'm gonna be vague on all the specifics, and I'm sorry about that, but I don't know what's next at the moment.  But it was a thought that I know was from God.  He told me, you initiate the change, and I'll help you the rest of the way.  So, after months of turmoil, I suddenly feel hopeful again.  Hopeful that there's a bright side to it all.  I can begin to see that God is, and has been, looking out for me...something I've had trouble seeing while in "the storm."  And I now have more confidence to seek the change that I want and need......all because I decided to take a bath.